It's continual.

This is really late....but I don’t understand Thanksgiving at all.

Just like I don’t understand Valentine’s Day.  If you love someone, you should show them that you love them every day.  There shouldn’t have to be a day where you remind them.  They shouldn’t need to be reminded.  Granted, humans are not perfect, and so sometimes we fall short and we need to remind those we care about that we do, in fact, care.  But for there to be a specific day for this doesn’t make sense to me.  Our love should be continual and ever present.  We should be spontaneous with our gifts, both concrete and abstract, and surprise our loved ones, because that will make them feel even better than a gift on a designated day could.  It shows them that we are thinking about them at the most arbitrary of times.

The same thing applies to Thanksgiving.  I’m thankful for all that I have every day I am alive, because the fact that I am still alive is something to be thankful for in itself.  With all of the obstacles and challenges I’ve experienced, life truly is a gift, even if I haven’t always recognized that fact.  And so I don’t understand why we have one day to be thankful.  We should embrace our gifts every day that we are alive.  Even if we lose sight of how blessed we are at times.  All it takes is a gentle push in the right direction, and we’ll remember all over again.

Be thankful every day....not just on Thanksgiving.

Just do it.

I over think everything.  I spend way too much time worrying about what could go wrong, and trying to plan out every single detail for so long that I end up having to rush to even get something done.  These blogs, for example.  I didn’t start until now because I was just so worried about everything that I could say, and how I could say it, that I just kept putting it off.

I’m a perfectionist, but that’s fatal in a world where perfection does not exist.

Also, I don’t start art until the last minute because I’m just SO scared to start.  I worry too much.  But, I think most of us do.  We spend too much time worrying about the destination, not the journey.  We forget that we can change things as we go, because no one gets it right the first time.  Life is filled with trial and error, but if you never even try, you can never succeed.  You can’t succeed unless you’re willing to fail.

But I’m not willing to fail, and perhaps it will be my downfall.

In order for me to become more developed as a being, I need to let go.  I need let myself learn, because life is a process.  But I always think I should just know how to do things automatically.  I expect too much of myself, which is both good and bad.  It’s the driving force that encourages me to always do my best, but it is also the thing which KEEPS me from doing my best.

In order to become the best person I can be, I need to start trusting myself, and that I will get to my destination, no matter how long the journey lasts.