Just do it.

I over think everything.  I spend way too much time worrying about what could go wrong, and trying to plan out every single detail for so long that I end up having to rush to even get something done.  These blogs, for example.  I didn’t start until now because I was just so worried about everything that I could say, and how I could say it, that I just kept putting it off.

I’m a perfectionist, but that’s fatal in a world where perfection does not exist.

Also, I don’t start art until the last minute because I’m just SO scared to start.  I worry too much.  But, I think most of us do.  We spend too much time worrying about the destination, not the journey.  We forget that we can change things as we go, because no one gets it right the first time.  Life is filled with trial and error, but if you never even try, you can never succeed.  You can’t succeed unless you’re willing to fail.

But I’m not willing to fail, and perhaps it will be my downfall.

In order for me to become more developed as a being, I need to let go.  I need let myself learn, because life is a process.  But I always think I should just know how to do things automatically.  I expect too much of myself, which is both good and bad.  It’s the driving force that encourages me to always do my best, but it is also the thing which KEEPS me from doing my best.

In order to become the best person I can be, I need to start trusting myself, and that I will get to my destination, no matter how long the journey lasts.