AGT pairs with TCA

“You are your parents.”

In bio we keep talking about this...and how no matter how much we try and say otherwise, we are a product of our parents.  They made us.  Everything that was inside of them is now inside of us....without them, we are nothing.

Thinking about that scares me.  I don’t exactly have the best genes.

I’m assuming that no one reads this and I dearly hope I’m right.

If we are our parents, then I feel as if you can just look at where they are to know where you’re going to go in life.  I know this isn’t exactly accurate, but if you look at families, they all generally resemble each other.  Of course there’s always the black sheep, but in general...families are patterns.

I can’t exactly go too far back with this seeing as my real family is all probably dead in Vietnam.  My mother and uncle were adopted twins.  My adoptive grandmother...well, I guess she’s also my mother because of some legal family matters...weird...but she’s generally not what I want to turn out like.  She’s uneducated, and uninformed, but she acts as if she is both well educated AND informed.  In reality, she’s not.  She’s a highly bias conservative that claims to be an independent.  My grandfather is someone that thinks he’s much smarter than he is because he got into a big corporation before there was a serious stress on education.  My mother didn’t even go to college and instead danced around poles until ten or so years ago.  My dad is/was a conman that we ran away from for a plethora of reasons.  Everyone I grew up around and everyone I’m a part of is someone I don’t want to be like.

Abused children always say they’re not going to be like their parents...but most of the time, they just end up doing the same things.  Am I going to be like that?  Does my extreme duress over worrying about this make it less probable that I’m going to turn out like them?

I don’t want to be a product of my genes and I don’t want to turn into the people I’ve come from.  I’m dedicated to changing myself as much as possible to be as unlike them as possible.  But in trying to change myself so drastically, will I even be myself anymore?  Or will I just lose my identity?  Is that better or worse than just becoming a screw up, if that’s who I am?

F genetics.